20 May 2010 is just tomorrow! Probably 1 hour and 3 minutes away now. Approximately a month ago, I was counting down to this fateful day when I have to finally make my decision whether to go to Peking or not. As of today, 19 May 2010, I'm deviating towards Law and I've probably turned the tables around in just a matter of 2 short weeks. As compared to my lengthy 1-year contemplation of whether to go Peking, 2 weeks may seem short, and my decision may be dismissed as precipitate.

Truthfully, I've had a hard time deciding between the two, because I believe both will lead me to a bright, albeit tough, future. Yet, both options are on the opposite ends of the spectrum, and thus I took an extremely long time to finally decide. I even lost sleep fretting over this. Choosing either option would no doubt bring about great challenges, pros and cons, and a great future, yet each choice would impact my life differently. More specifically, both choices will definitely change my life forever.

After a long contemplation on my own, and soliciting views from everyone and everywhere, I'm pretty much settled on Law. I'm really upset to give up my Peking offer because I truly think it's a great chance to explore and tap into the Chinese market if I could study there. Studying there could have given me worldly perspectives and an authentic understanding of China, which could have made me one of the rare few who could think like them. I'll probably be in great demand when I grow up because China is the new fad. I understand all these predictions. I understand that this is a really good opportunity. I understand that I was trained and groomed in school to take this route. I'm afraid I'll regret not choosing Peking. Yet, I also understand the challenges that come along with it, and wondering whether my abilities are up to scratch. I'm doubting myself. And I think it's kind of hard to leave everything behind for 4 years. And probably leave everything behind in the future since I had pictured myself working in China. Maybe this isn't the choice after all?

Therefore, Law.

(As I'm highly fickle, I may change my mind easily. So I daren't send out any confirmation emails, or accept anything via the portal. Hahahahahahaa)

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

12:48 AM